So friend me if you enjoy a good dose of random. I'll try to keep it light hearted... except for the occasional weight loss schtuff, which is a part of this infamous "Me" that has been quite conceptual until recently.
Happy New Year to all.
I am back at my beginning of last summer weight, but Sunday night we got rid of all the junk food and bought my healthy snacks again.. so here's to making changes in 2009!
In the LJ Spotlight I was intrigued by the community mission101_2009, Starting January 1st, the goal is to complete 101 goals in 1001 days. So without further ado - here is my list:
( 101 Opportunities for Success )I have made some progress:
#4 - Make an inspiration journal - I started this on January 1st and I love it! Collages, goals, quotes, pictures.. I can definitely keep this up
#7 - Exercise - I've worked out 3 times this week :)
#23 - No sweats in public
#24 - Whiten teeth
#52 - Build and Decorate jewelry shelf - I've built it! Decorating it tomorrow!
Bask in small pleasures, right? :)
Goodnight!
So I'm home for the weekend.. and I weight myself for the first time in over a month on my home scale and I've maintained. Still 176... which I guess is good because I'm eating pretty poorly lately. The lettuce in the dining hall has been so wilted looking lately... I'm hoping after break it'll be better.
So toay I bought mini 110 calorie bagels, I figure that with some tea and a piece of fruit is a good breakfast... better than the scones that I've been eating lately.... it's just tough, it's mid-term time, classes are getting more difficult... UHG! I just need to stay afloat. This weekend my history of theatre midterm is my #1 priority. Then after Wednesday my scene for my acting class is priority. Then my Western Civ papers, then my dance presentation, then my History of theatre term paper. oy vey. Sorry. Rambling. All the while balancing stupid drama with friends and boarderline depression.
I'd just like to make some progress on my weightloss. Life has been quite crappy, so I need to make something good for myself.. and being home just reminded me that YES! I do have a say in what I eat.. less of a say while I'm at school.. but there are healthier options that I am not going for. I am proud of myself for going to the gym at least 2 times a week lately.. in addition to my dance class on Tuesdays and Thursdays.
So here is my new goal, I'm setting the bar low:
165lb by December 20th.
11 pounds by the end of my semester and I will buy myself a new dress for my friend's wedding on December 27th.
- Music:Muse - Time is Running Out
NYC with my sister today was really fun. We didn't do anything extravagant or crazy.. we went to Strawberry Fields, the Metropolitian Art Museum, H&M :), and several other random places... but we ended up walking about 6-7 miles with how much we walked around Central Park back and forth and back and forth.. but you really don't realize how far you're walking when you're in Central Park.. I mean, I live in the suburbs, and it's the most extravagantly refreshing stretch of land I've ever been on
Weigh in this morning... at 6AM this morning because we left on the 7:30 bus! I'm 175! My pre-vacation weight.
I've been thinking a lot about my confidence and my goals and my being a theatre major and everything lately... and for the first time in a really long time I feel really good about myself. I don't know, but something has switched in me. I know feeling it and acting it is two different things, but I just feel like I'm finally me. A girl who works really hard towards her goals and dreams and knows what she wants. I tried getting people to take me seriously by my looks, by what I say - or rather, don't say by being a little porcelin doll all pretty and quiet... I've learned a lot - I like clothing, andI like intelligent conversation... but it should matter if I wear a paper bag dress and talk nonstop!... my real friends love me for my personality.... and if I ever want to be a performer, with a casting director, cast, and fans who believe in me - I have to show them someone worth believing in. Because I am worth the time and the attention.
Holy Break Throughs Batman!
I think going to New York definitely has something to do with it too... it makes the whole Theatre Major thing seem real... like.. there are several hundred people in a very condensed area that are fortunate enough to call performing every night their job! I can't get over that.
It really inspires me to keep going and try even harder to get healthy because I have some important auditions coming up in January and February!
- Music:"While My Guitar Gently Weeps" - The Beatles
So I'm having mass amounts of difficulty putting my vacation pictures on livejournal... so here's the link to my facebook album:
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=20
One amazing discovery on the boardwalk: There's this place called Cereal Chillers and all it is - it's an ice cream shop that offers cereal as an ice cream topping! How awesome! And it was so good! I got Kashi Crunch cereal on top of my butterfinger hard ice cream.. :) It was really good. But it was awesome! We have no sugar added hard ice cream at my work.. that in chocolate plus the Kashi crunch would be awesome. Or even mixed into just a little bit of the soft ice cream like a Blizzard... YUM!
NSV!! My work pants were quite tight around the tummy and booty when I started working in May... like underwear line, slight muffin top.. but all of it was covered by my work shirt... WELL.. even fresh out of the dryer there is LOOSENESS in the booty department and it buttons with no sucking in, no crossing the legs and jumping around like an idiot. They fit! :) Granted, they are older and stretched out.. probably not a true size 12 anymore.. but still, they fit comfortably when they didn't before!!! :)
School starts: 3 weeks from today!!! :) My goal is to exercise every day until then. I fell off the bootcamp, but I'm totally back.. I've decided not to make a numerical weight loss goal, because I don't want to be disappointed, because the body works in mysterious ways. So I'm aiming for maybe 4 pounds, but as long as I eat healthier and bootcamp it every day, I'll be happy.
Oh! And I finally got the book to study for my permit test. (I had my learners permit when I was 16, got it renewed when I was 17... but it's expired)... so I'm going to get it this month, and hopefully get my license either over Christmas or spring break! I don't know when I'm going for my permit test though... I guess I should read the book first! haha :)
Well tonight I'm going to Walmart, the Salvation Army Store(YAY thrifting!!), and Boscov's... I need some measuring cups, a comforter, socks, and some pillow cases... wish me luck! Then tonight is a Project Runway smoothie night!! :) My favorite hour of a Wednesday.... haha.. I wouldn't venture to say I'm a fashion freak.. but I certainly am a fashion dork.
- Music:"Pushin Me Away" - Jonas Brothers
So I'm back from my family's traveling circus.. I mean family vacation. And I weight myself this morning and it says I gained obscene amounts of weight... and I hopped back on the scale, and it said I had gained an even larger amount of weight... so I think my scale became unbalanced or something.. because I didn't eat the best... but I did exercise.. I rode bikes 2 days, did laps in the pool 3 days.. there is no way I gained 7 pounds... even with the chocolate covered cheesecake on a stick. haha. I did let myself to a little... but I'm going out to get some pictures developed so I'll pick up some lettuce and eggs to hardboil to get back on my healthy eating. It just kind of pisses me off a little that my sister didn't exercise and I did, and she only gained 2 pounds according to the scale.
But it was a great trip... my mom won some extra pocket cash when we went to Atlantic City for the night.. we went Parasailing, we caught one keeper flounder when we were fishing... I caught 2 baby bass and a skate fish(aka a mini sting ray looking thing.. my first thought went to Steve Irwin and I thought I was going to die!) I bought an army of earrings and stuff.
So I might have a sleepover to go to tonight... I really hope not.. it'll be awkward and I won't eat any of the junk food that they're trying to shove down my throat... and plus I just got 12 hours of sleep and I'm still tired from waking up at 7 every morning this week. haha.
I'll post pictures either later or tomorrow because it's storming now and I need to go.
But one last thing - I am obsessed with Coldplay's song "Viva la Vida". I love it.
- Music:"Viva la Vida" - Coldplay
Then I went to walmart after midnight... bad call. But I did exercise my "city walk" that whole focused stare, big confident steps, not making eye contact. Then after I bought my water shoes and Nair(yep - totally didn't shave!! ^_^) I had the option between two lines... a few ghetto boys, or an older mother and daughter who seemed to be buying stuff for a baby shower... I chose the women, and I actually ended up talking to them which kind of eased my nerves when an army of ghetto boys got in line behind me...
WOW! My family might actually leave before 10! We're practically ready... all I have to do is put away my face wash and tooth brush.. and I'm ready for an almost week in OC, NJ!!! <3 We just need to finish packing food mainly.. and pack the car... well, I better go start!
I'm armed with a swimsuit, whole grain wheat thins, laughing cow cheese wedges, weight watchers cheddar cheese, Fiber One bars, grapes, and carrots... the goal - don't gain anything!
I hope you all have a great week! <3
TaTa for now! :)
- Music:Viva la Vida - Coldplay
So... I don't feel like shaving right now. The fact that tomorrow my legs will be entirely bare in my bathing suit does not phase me... the fact that my legs, especially my thighs could be confused with a gorilla's thigh doesn't bother me(well, a very light haired, fair skinned gorilla.. haha)... hopefully I feel like shaving them before 3, because I have to go to church at 4, then I have to work until midnight! Maybe I'll just buy some Nair at walmart and I'll nair my legs, and just shave the very top...
I trimmed my bangs last night.. they're a little shorter than they were when I first got my hair cut... but I love it, and they'll be long again in no time.
There's a 30% chance of storms tonight... hopefully that will scare people away from getting ice cream tonight.
Oh... I've totally started an epidemic of Phineas and Ferb in my friends... my college and high school friends.. It's such a great cartoon... there are songs in all the episodes... like good songs... it's whitty and cute... and there's a platypus that doubles as a secret agent... you can't get any better than that! I totally suggest it to all of you. It's on every weekday at 10:30am on Disney Channel and most afternoons at either 2 or 3... or just look up the songs on Youtube... it's so cute! :)
Well... I have to go finish packing... and... shave. uhg.
- Music:"We Can Work It Out" - The Beatles
MTV Remaking The Rocky Horror Picture Show
http://www.comingsoon.net/news/movienews.p
I think I want to curl in the corner and cry.
Okay, I had a weird interaction with a guy the other day... somebody please tell me how to feel about this.. because I can't stop thinking about it... I was in walmart intently focused on comparing different protein bars, and my mom called. I picked up my phone, I am clearly on the phone and intently comparing a product in each hand. Clearly occupied and busy. All of the sudden I feel something cold on the back of my shoulder. I turn around and it's some guy who just touched my shoulder with his soda can. I say "Hi, just a second", quickly finish the conversation with my mom - making it sound important and urgent(..she was telling me where the water shoes were.. haha)... and I hang up, and the guy is still looking at me. Then he goes "I just wanted to say hi!" and I reply with an ever so cool "Hi.......?" Then he asks, "You don't remember me do you" and I shook my head and apolagized... he then said that he went to school with me, said bye and walked away.
I feel horrible that I don't remember this kid... but then again, I was very involved in high school - I was in band, all 4 choruses, musical, fall play, and I did the talent show, performed at Bacceauloriet and Graduation... and my parents own a business right down the street from the school... so it makes total sense that he'd know who I am... and especially if he wasn't that involved in school (he didn't give off that school spirity vibe) and I didn't recognize him from any of my classes.... but what creeps me out a bit is the whole soda can on the shoulder bit. I'd do that to my friend, to someone I see, or at least saw every day and had a relationship, even an acquaitance with... but not to someone that I just recognized from high school?... I don't know. totally skeeved me out.
And now I have some creeper messaging me on myspace... I reported him, and I haven't responded.... I hate myspace, but some of my friends don't have facebooks, so it's easy to stay in touch with them with it.
I'm just sick of creepers in my life. Why can't I attract a normal man for once?
But SCORE! Someone gave me a coupon for my tampons at Target.. yay for saving a dollar! I also found the Target brand protein bars... a box is $4, so I bought a single one to see if I like them... 14 grams of protein.. seems like a good between class snack to me.
I'm about half way packed. I just want to be there right now. I'm excited to cross the state line from PA to New Jersey and hear Bon Jovi's "Who Says You Can't Go Home" on the radio every 4 seconds... and stop at the same McDonalds and... well, this will be the first year in ever I don't order a happy meal :( Grilled chicken and a fruit and walnut salad for this girl! And then feed all of the leftovers to the seagulls... then start seeing the big ferris wheel in the skyline... yay! :) It makes me happy! Oh! And I want to buy a kite to fly on the beach in the evening :) I always think they look so pretty.. I want to help make some of the pretty
- Music:Monk is on tv
Quite sad. I didn't win the Jonas Brothers tickets. Not that I really believed I was going to... but there's always that little chance... my mom did get through one time.. she was caller 18, the winner was caller 25. This is becoming a Backstreet Boys level obsession quite quickly... and I love it! :)
I love going to the King of Prussia mall... it's always a good day there :) There was some talk of Sarah's wedding... I'm excited for it... I really do wish the best for her and her hubby... it's just so sudden. And it's weird.. her mom moved to Florida, she lives with her dad now - she doesn't live around the block any more! But after the wedding she's moving like 4 hours away... :( No more making movies, no more music videos, no more hanging out at the mall... it's sad. My sister, Sarah, Trish, and I are all going to see Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants in a few weeks, right before my sister leaves for school to start her senior year of college.
Holy time moving faster than the speed of light, Batman!
So it's 1am... I'm not tired, so maybe I'll finally finish cleaning my room. I have a pile of dirty laundry.. I can't very well do laundry now.. but I could put away the piles of clean clothing.. and start packing.. I think I have like 3 things in the suitcase right now! This is bad for me! I'm usually on this shit - but I'm not... this has just been an odd week. It feels like it's going slowly, but it passed so quickly! Nighty night!
- Music:"I've Just Seen a Face" - The Beatles
all are tails of human failing
all are tales of love at heart"
-Every Story Is A Love Story - Aida
I'm in such an Aida mood right now.... I love being in an Aida mood :)
So no luck on the Jonas Brothers tickets... yet.. but I think the FM97 busy signal is starting to sound angrier and angrier at me.
I was up until 4 last night because of a storm... but I like storms and it was our first substancial thunder storm this summer... but I was too afraid to actually go up to the widow and watch the lightning. I was too afraid Cruela DeVil would appear at my window asking to buy my 15 newborn, unspotted dalmatian puppies or something... which is completely crazy because I'm on the 2nd floor(Yes, that's the only unrealistic part of the Cruela DeVil theory x__X haha)
Oh yeah - 175 pounds for the second morning in a roooowwww!!! :D And I even gave in to every ice cream related craving last night. - one scoop of chocolate hard ice cream sprinkled with a spoonful of peanut butter cup pieces and butterfinger pieces and a dab of marshmallow... but it was small... but it was mighty! I know I can't eat that all the time... but it was the most amazing superdeduperest treat ever.
But it seems like I'm not going to be able to go on a walk today.. the high is only 81, which is perfect.. but it's rainy. I've walked in the rain before though... so we'll see. I hope they still have the school district carnival tonight... I was going to go play bingo! (Wow, I sound like an old lady.)
Wish me luck for the JB tickets! :) haha.
- Music:"My Strongest Suit" - Aida
But good news: I hopped on the scale today: 175!!!!!!! SQUEE! That's 10 lb.!! Now it's not my official weigh in today... that's Saturday, but still... It's definitely motivational :) I'm going to King of Prussia on Thursday, and if I'm 175 for the next 3 mornings then I'm buying myself my 175 pound reward at Sephora :)
(Rant about guys... well.. one guy in particular... just a warning.)
In other news, boys are assholes. And I think I realized, I don't even miss him... it's the idea of him that I miss. The thought that he might miraculously get over her after 2 years and realize how beautiful I am, and realize that I'm the best thing that could have hapened to him.. but No! He's so selfish and petty... I don't know what his problem is anymore. I was going to ask him if he could have lunch with me at King of Prussia on Thursday because he lives pretty close and I haven't seen him in 2 months, but I don't know if I want to anymore... I mean.. we spent a lot of time together last semester, and I miss our inside jokes... but a lot of it was him complaining to me, using me as a therpist... I mean, he trusts me and confides in me.. and there's only so much of that I can take! I mean - I give and give and give in this "relationship"... is it too much for him to care about what's going on in my life or what I'm worried about or upset over? I know everything about his ex, his high school friends, his family, and so on and so on.... he doesn't know jackshit about my life and my drama. I could tell when something was bothering him... but I was just cute and happy girl who he could trust with anything, I was the perfect little target for all of his selfishness because I care so damn much about him that I just lap it up like water. Enough is enough. Things are going to be much different from now on. I'll let him call me or im me... I hereby cut off my right to initiate communication with that dog.
Now if I could only stick to this the next time I see him or talk to him instead of melting like butter and start choking on my words and get bashful and stupid and not be myself....
Well, I have to go to work... I need chocolate ice cream.
- Music:Bottle It Up - Sara Bareilles
Oh, and The Dark Knight. TOTALLYAWESOME! I don't usually reveal the 4 year old comic book geek that I was... even though I still have my cousin's set of original X-Men action figures in my room... anyway. It was amazing. There was not one part that I thought was boring or dragged out... a few quick things I didn't quite get but that can be solved by seeing it again :) And Heath Ledger... I still have the poster of him in A Knight's Tale hanging right over my bed .. he was amazing. I wish I had a fraction of his level of talent! Remarkable. And Gary Oldman... ILOVEHIMSOMUCH!... (MUCHMORETHANA19YEAROLDSHOULD! ) haha. He's one of my favorite actors. He's excellent.
Anyway.. just checked the weather forecast for vacation... Sunday, 85° high, Isolated storms, 30% chance, Monday 84 Sunny, Tuesday 85 Sunny. YAAAAAAYYYYYYYYY!!!! :)
I really need to start going to bed earlier. Goodnight 2am.
I know I keep talking about it, but I am such a dork when it comes to vacation... I've always been. When I was little, I'd always write and illustrate a book for my little brother before we went to the beach. My Gramom would help me with what to write, I'd draw the pictures, she'd keep them in an envelope and then "publish it"... aka: staple it. haha :) Oh, I was an embarassingly creative child.
Anyway... the beach bench has started... right now it only has some beach towels, a portable radio, and a paper bag full of snacks... but soon it will include suit cases and a bucket or two, some magazines... This week just needs to fly by! I've been up for 4 hours, but it feels like it's been 8! I always get so excited that time practically stops!
I'm starting the Spark People Bootcamp thing. My problem is that I have no room to do any workouts in front of my computer, and I don't get wireless in many other parts of my house where I could work out... but I do have a workout DVD that's cut up into 10 minute segments, focusing on all different muscle groups... so it wouldn't be the exact same... and there are printable versions of the workouts.. and so far it looks like I can do all of them in the hotel room... i just need something to spice up my workout routine and something that makes me stick to it.
Maybe I'll go clean to make the time pass... or maybe I'll just end up reading Twilight :)
-I'm pretty sure DMB's "Where Are You Going" is going to be a slow song at my wedding reception.
-I checked the weather channel website 10 day forecast, and the first day of my vacation is on there... and it supposed to be 86°F and Sunny in OC, NJ the 27th!! Huzzah! Perfect weather for spending hours in the ocean!! I know it's still 10 days away... but still :)
-The new seasons of Monk and Psych start tonight!! Probably a fruit smoothie worthy event :)
-Chinese food for dinner! And they have kids sized meals :)
-I'm starting to make my traditional Beach-music mix for my family's vacation... our van doesn't have a cd player, but we have a portable dvd player that we use to play music when we get close... the past few years it's tradition that I make a mix that we listen to for the last hour or so of our drive. If you have any good suggestions for summery songs, just post them :) Musical tastes in my family range from The Beatles,Chicago, U2, Backstreet Boys, Jonas Brothers :), Finger 11, just to name a few of the artists I've put on the cd so far... but I think I'm going to make 2 this year... I have a lot of songs I like this summer!
-In case you couldn't tell... I'm so excited for vacation!!! :D
-I have to go clean my room and do laundry before dinner... bye!
- Music:Stay - Dave Matthews Band
I love the Jonas Brothers
They are The Backstreet Boys + Hanson... and that equals a whole lot of awesome! :)
I really hope I get to see them at the Allentown Fair!!
I was watching Phineas and Ferb while cleaning the computer room, and they have a little commercial break short series of "Behinds the Scenes" stuff with the Jonas Brothers on the Disney Chanel... and this was about staying healthy on the road... and it showed Joe lifting weights and working out... *TeEnIeBoPpEr SwOoN* :D
Today.. I had a fruit smoothie for breakfast, openfaced roasted chicken salad sandwich for lunch... then I had a yoohoo juice box thing and a 100 calore pack of Stella Doras.. aka: the root of my existence :) haha... no idea what's for dinner
And I literally just got a phone call asking me to work 6 - close tonight... which is alright because this was only going to be a 33 hour pay check before vacation, so now I get at least 38.. which is better of course... the only thing is I won't be able to take my walk tonight :( Oh well... maybe I'll just do some Yoga Booty Ballet now and have some grapes afterwards.. I'll just order a chicken salad at work... But that means the temptation of ice cream is all around me! Maybe I'll bring some skim milk and make a milkshake... hmmm
Goodnight yall.
- Music:Gold - Interference
Most people meet their vitamin D needs through exposure to sunlight [6,27]. Ultraviolet (UV) B radiation with a wavelength of 290-315 nanometers penetrates uncovered skin and converts cutaneous 7-dehydrocholesterol to previtamin D3, which in turn becomes vitamin D3 [11,27-28]. Season, geographic latitude, time of day, cloud cover, smog, skin melanin content, and sunscreen are among the factors that affect UV radiation exposure and vitamin D synthesis [28]. The UV energy above 42 degrees north latitude (a line approximately between the northern border of California and Boston) is insufficient for cutaneous vitamin D synthesis from November through February [6]; in far northern latitudes, this reduced intensity lasts for up to 6 months. Latitudes below 34 degrees north (a line between Los Angeles and Columbia, South Carolina) allow for cutaneous production of vitamin D throughout the year [14]
I did Yoga Booty Ballet today... I sweat so much! It felt so good. It made me so excited for my ballet/modern class this semester! I might go on a walk later too... maybe around 6... I'm going to walmart around 8 to get lettuce, because I'm out already from Sunday night.... maybe I'll pick up some mangos as well... I'm back down to 176 this morning! Bloating.. hopefully over.
Maybe I'll clean my room now... I have to pack for vacation next week, and I hate packing in a messy room... and I hate coming home to a messy room. So I'll be killing two pet peeves with one stone. .. wow.. the more I reveal about myself the more I probably like I need a lot of medication.
I leave with a random question: Has anybody ever used that continuous spray sun tan lotion? How do you tell that all of your skin is covered? I have pale, very burn-prone skin... so I like glopping on the cream and knowing my skin is totally covered... but I'm curious about the continuous spray stuff.
So with nothing much to be inspried by, I attatch this video to the entry
Psych, anyone?
It is so easy to spend $70! I bought a rug for my dorm! At Target for $25.. it's dark blue with blue, green, and white squares on it. It's cute... our overall room-theme is darker colors, with splashes of lighter colors.. like I think we might be getting bright green curtains for the window. I also bought a pair of jean shorts(I realized yesterday I have 2 pairs of shorts, none of which are denim!), 2 tank tops, some waterproof brown mascara, and some purple mascara. And BOOM! money go byebye! But it was.. mostly.. stuff I needed.. except the purple mascara.. but I'll get good use out of it :)
I don't know if this is a good or bad thing - I'm not going to be in that wedding in December... my friend's fiance doesn't want anybody standing for him, so she's not going to have any bridesmaids.. I'm kind of sad because the 4 of us have always been a fiersome foursome.. and all the wedding stuff would kind of be like our last adventure.. but I guess we still have a bachelorette party.. maybe something like a nice dinner and a show in NYC... we'll see. But at least now I won't have to worry about fittings and dress sizes.. but I could reward myself with a dress if I'm down a size or two! :)
Well, I have to work at 7... I'm outie.
I think it's my haircut. I think my bangs just yells "CREEPERS WANTED!"
oh.. and I'm not going to be in that wedding in December... she's not having any bridesmaids because the groom doesn't want anybody standing for him. I'm okay with it.. it just would have been so fun for the 4 of us to have that experience together.. I mean.. we'll still be helping with the shower.. and doing some sort of bachelorette party.. maybe a trip to NYC for a nice dinner.. maybe the Sex in the City tour or something. But we're not part of the wedding.. so it's just a bit of a let down... but now I don't have to worry about a dress fitting and making sure I still fit the dress... I can just buy myself a nice new outfit.. hopefully a size 12.. optimistically a size 10!
Goodnight.
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