Just me and my thoughts sailing far away

Thu, 08 Jan 2009 06:44:47 GMT

Happy New Year to all.
I am back at my beginning of last summer weight, but Sunday night we got rid of all the junk food and bought my healthy snacks again.. so here's to making changes in 2009!

In the LJ Spotlight I was intrigued by the community mission101_2009, Starting January 1st, the goal is to complete 101 goals in 1001 days. So without further ado - here is my list:

Personal:

1. Be more assertive, without being obnoxious

2. Carry myself with more confidence and sas

3. Stop worrying that people dislike me and just be myself

4. Keep an inspiration journal with quotes, pictures, lyrics, etc..

5. Lose weight and maintain it under 145 pounds

6. Have my first real kiss.. and maybe my first boyfriend

7. Exercise for at least a half hour 4-5 times a week

8. Stretch often, get my flat splits back

9. Get my license!!

10. Introduce myself to a stranger

11. Have a massive cleaning of all my old clothing and junk and sell or donate it

12. Use that mani/pedi/massage gift card I got for Christmas 07!

13. Send a secret to Post Secret

14. Buy that darn bathing suit I’ve been looking at for 2 years when I’m at least a size 10(the vamp maillot http://www.jantzen.com/spring_collection.asp)

15. Get new tires and a basket for my mom’s old bike and ride it around campus

16. Get a bikini wax

17. Get a nice wallet with pockets for all of my cards so I don’t lose them anymore!

18. Buy some sort of contraption that will allow me to prepare eggs without a stove

19. Just throw him down and kiss him already!!!

20. Ask a guy out on a date

21. Ask a guy to my junior and senior formal(provided that I don’t have a boyfriend by then..)

New Habits:

22. Cut back my beauty regiment(product and cost wise)

23. Wear sweats/pajamas to class/in public as little as possible

24. Finish a whole box of Crest White Strips

25. Make myself tea more often

26. Keep my accessories and beauty products organized in my new shelf(see #43 under Creative) so I don’t lose them and need to buy more

27. Get the free movie tickets my school offers every time they offer it

28. Buy stackable paper trays and keep my desk more organized

29. Sort greeting cards into a file system by occasion

30. Cut back on soda

31. Go at least 1 week without junk food 10 separate times (0/10)

32. Use my marker board to keep track of project/exam/important dates

33. Whenever I go to the grocery store by my school buy fresh produce instead of snack foods

Educational/Career/Future:

34. Get cast as a major part in a show at my college

35. Start and complete a minor

36. Graduate college! (Woo! Class of 2011!)

37. Get professional headshots

38. Attend at least 2 professional auditions in 2009, at least 3 in 2010, and at least 6 in 2011

39. Land summer performance jobs - or, if I don’t, at least enter the local talent competition

40. Keep saving my change and tip money(since last summer I have $115)

41. Put $5 in my savings account(not checking account! haha) for every day of the challenge(0/5005) (not necessarily every day, but gradually over pay checks put it away)

42. Make the Dean’s List

43. After graduation, have a bonfire and burn old school stuff that I despise

44. Finish at least 1 paper before 12:00am the day it’s due

Creative/Entertaimnent:

45. Read one recreational book a season (0/11)

46. Read all of Jane Austen’s novels (I just got the big complete works book, so no excuses there!)(0/7)

47. Reread the Twilight series(0/4)

48. Make a list of and watch 100 movies I’ve never seen before(6/100) (0/100)

49. Find a new song each week and share it with at least one friend (1/143)

50. Take as studio art class

51. Choreograph a dance, either for myself or others to perform

52. Build and decorate new plain white storage shelf

53. Fix the button on my rain coat

54. Get a plain pair of shoes and decorate them

55. Finish turning my old purple homecoming dress to a RenFaire dress, and wear it to the RenFaire

56. Make Sailor Moon costume for Halloween

57. Make a full length Twilight spoof movie

58. Go to a zoo

59. Go to an art museum

60. See an opera

61. See at least 2 Broadway shows a year (0/5-6)

62. Catch up on every episode of Grey’s Anatomy

63. Catch up on every episode of John & Kate Plus 8

64. Figure out the song “Don’t Let Me Fall” by Lenka on piano

65. Practice flute again

66. Practice drums again

67. Compose a theme song for myself and my family(in a very The Holiday fashion)

68. Update my deviant art with my model slots and my own photography and art work

For Other People:

69. Redecorate the bathroom and dining room at my dad’s sandwich shop

70. Send birthday/anniversary/holiday/get well cards to my loved ones

71. Hand write a letter and mail it to my sister

72. Leave a post it notes on a dressing room mirror with encouraging messages

73. Make at least 50% of the presents I give for a Christmas

74. Make a meal for somebody

75. Surprise somebody with flowers

76. Send post cards to my friends no matter where my vacations are

77. Make a mix cd as a gift

78. Pay for a stranger at my school’s dining hall with my flex when they go to pay with cash

For a cause:

79. Go to a BC/EFA event

80. Donate my hair when I get it cut

81. Pick a child’s name from church to buy presents at Christmases

82. Always carry a reusable shopping bag with me

For a smile:

83. Go ice skating in either Rockafeller Center or Central Park

84. Ride the ferris wheel in the Toys R Us in Time Square

85. Watch sunrise over the ocean

86. Get shitfaced… if only once on my 21^st birthday

87. Get at least one legit ticket at the Pimps & Hoes party

88. Learn to bake ricotta cookies myself

89. Learn to make my Gramom’s recipe for macaroni and cheese as good as she did

90. Fly a kite on the beach

91. Get a pet fish for my dorm/apartment

92. Plan and hold an epic party

93. Pull a non-study related all nighter

94. Sing Queen’s “Crazy Little Thing Called Love” on karaoke

95. Go to Saks Fifth Avenue and actually let the cosmetic people test stuff on my face J

96. Go for a walk in the snow, alone or hand in hand with someone

97. Make smores on an open fire

98. Learn the old fashioned meaning behind flowers and their colors, etc….

99. Make sno-cones with my Snoopy sno-cone maker

100.Attend a Dracula’s Ball in an outfit that is entirely mine

101.Go to a real haunted location

I have made some progress:
#4 - Make an inspiration journal - I started this on January 1st and I love it! Collages, goals, quotes, pictures.. I can definitely keep this up
#7 - Exercise - I've worked out 3 times this week :)
#23 - No sweats in public
#24 - Whiten teeth
#52 - Build and Decorate jewelry shelf - I've built it! Decorating it tomorrow!

Bask in small pleasures, right? :)
Goodnight!

I need to update more..

Mon, 13 Oct 2008 01:13:35 GMT

So I'm home for the weekend.. and I weight myself for the first time in over a month on my home scale and I've maintained. Still 176... which I guess is good because I'm eating pretty poorly lately. The lettuce in the dining hall has been so wilted looking lately... I'm hoping after break it'll be better.

So toay I bought mini 110 calorie bagels, I figure that with some tea and a piece of fruit is a good breakfast... better than the scones that I've been eating lately.... it's just tough, it's mid-term time, classes are getting more difficult... UHG! I just need to stay afloat. This weekend my history of theatre midterm is my #1 priority. Then after Wednesday my scene for my acting class is priority. Then my Western Civ papers, then my dance presentation, then my History of theatre term paper. oy vey. Sorry. Rambling. All the while balancing stupid drama with friends and boarderline depression.

I'd just like to make some progress on my weightloss. Life has been quite crappy, so I need to make something good for myself.. and being home just reminded me that YES! I do have a say in what I eat.. less of a say while I'm at school.. but there are healthier options that I am not going for. I am proud of myself for going to the gym at least 2 times a week lately.. in addition to my dance class on Tuesdays and Thursdays.

So here is my new goal, I'm setting the bar low:
165lb by December 20th.
11 pounds by the end of my semester and I will buy myself a new dress for my friend's wedding on December 27th.

New York, New York.

Sun, 10 Aug 2008 05:05:08 GMT

NYC with my sister today was really fun. We didn't do anything extravagant or crazy.. we went to Strawberry Fields, the Metropolitian Art Museum, H&M :), and several other random places... but we ended up walking about 6-7 miles with how much we walked around Central Park back and forth and back and forth.. but you really don't realize how far you're walking when you're in Central Park.. I mean, I live in the suburbs, and it's the most extravagantly refreshing stretch of land I've ever been on

Weigh in this morning... at 6AM this morning because we left on the 7:30 bus! I'm 175! My pre-vacation weight.

I've been thinking a lot about my confidence and my goals and my being a theatre major and everything lately... and for the first time in a really long time I feel really good about myself. I don't know, but something has switched in me. I know feeling it and acting it is two different things, but I just feel like I'm finally me. A girl who works really hard towards her goals and dreams and knows what she wants. I tried getting people to take me seriously by my looks, by what I say - or rather, don't say by being a little porcelin doll all pretty and quiet... I've learned a lot - I like clothing, andI like intelligent conversation... but it should matter if I wear a paper bag dress and talk nonstop!... my real friends love me for my personality.... and if I ever want to be a performer, with a casting director, cast, and fans who believe in me - I have to show them someone worth believing in. Because I am worth the time and the attention.

Holy Break Throughs Batman!

I think going to New York definitely has something to do with it too... it makes the whole Theatre Major thing seem real... like.. there are several hundred people in a very condensed area that are fortunate enough to call performing every night their job! I can't get over that.

It really inspires me to keep going and try even harder to get healthy because I have some important auditions coming up in January and February!

Wed, 06 Aug 2008 20:29:23 GMT

So I'm having mass amounts of difficulty putting my vacation pictures on livejournal... so here's the link to my facebook album:
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=2000881&l=160ae&id=1474470006

One amazing discovery on the boardwalk: There's this place called Cereal Chillers and all it is - it's an ice cream shop that offers cereal as an ice cream topping! How awesome! And it was so good! I got Kashi Crunch cereal on top of my butterfinger hard ice cream.. :) It was really good. But it was awesome! We have no sugar added hard ice cream at my work.. that in chocolate plus the Kashi crunch would be awesome. Or even mixed into just a little bit of the soft ice cream like a Blizzard... YUM!

NSV!! My work pants were quite tight around the tummy and booty when I started working in May... like underwear line, slight muffin top.. but all of it was covered by my work shirt... WELL.. even fresh out of the dryer there is LOOSENESS in the booty department and it buttons with no sucking in, no crossing the legs and jumping around like an idiot. They fit! :) Granted, they are older and stretched out.. probably not a true size 12 anymore.. but still, they fit comfortably when they didn't before!!! :)

School starts: 3 weeks from today!!! :) My goal is to exercise every day until then. I fell off the bootcamp, but I'm totally back.. I've decided not to make a numerical weight loss goal, because I don't want to be disappointed, because the body works in mysterious ways. So I'm aiming for maybe 4 pounds, but as long as I eat healthier and bootcamp it every day, I'll be happy.

Oh! And I finally got the book to study for my permit test. (I had my learners permit when I was 16, got it renewed when I was 17... but it's expired)... so I'm going to get it this month, and hopefully get my license either over Christmas or spring break! I don't know when I'm going for my permit test though... I guess I should read the book first! haha :)

Well tonight I'm going to Walmart, the Salvation Army Store(YAY thrifting!!), and Boscov's... I need some measuring cups, a comforter, socks, and some pillow cases... wish me luck! Then tonight is a Project Runway smoothie night!! :) My favorite hour of a Wednesday.... haha.. I wouldn't venture to say I'm a fashion freak.. but I certainly am a fashion dork.

I think my scale broke...

Sat, 02 Aug 2008 15:10:50 GMT

So I'm back from my family's traveling circus.. I mean family vacation. And I weight myself this morning and it says I gained obscene amounts of weight... and I hopped back on the scale, and it said I had gained an even larger amount of weight... so I think my scale became unbalanced or something.. because I didn't eat the best... but I did exercise.. I rode bikes 2 days, did laps in the pool 3 days.. there is no way I gained 7 pounds... even with the chocolate covered cheesecake on a stick. haha. I did let myself to a little... but I'm going out to get some pictures developed so I'll pick up some lettuce and eggs to hardboil to get back on my healthy eating. It just kind of pisses me off a little that my sister didn't exercise and I did, and she only gained 2 pounds according to the scale.

But it was a great trip... my mom won some extra pocket cash when we went to Atlantic City for the night.. we went Parasailing, we caught one keeper flounder when we were fishing... I caught 2 baby bass and a skate fish(aka a mini sting ray looking thing.. my first thought went to Steve Irwin and I thought I was going to die!) I bought an army of earrings and stuff.

So I might have a sleepover to go to tonight... I really hope not.. it'll be awkward and I won't eat any of the junk food that they're trying to shove down my throat... and plus I just got 12 hours of sleep and I'm still tired from waking up at 7 every morning this week. haha.
I'll post pictures either later or tomorrow because it's storming now and I need to go.

But one last thing - I am obsessed with Coldplay's song "Viva la Vida". I love it.

TTFN!

Sun, 27 Jul 2008 12:34:46 GMT

Work was interesting last night.. I saw my high school musical director... he said he wished that I had gone to Europe with him(he runs a student trip to Europe every other year)... and then there was an older man - no creeper vibe this time! He had a thick accent and spoke Spanish to his family, but after he paid he told me that I was a very nice girl. and I was just like "aw! :)" Then I was waiting on a larget group, and I saw him get back in line... other girls had small orders, but he waited in my line despite the huge order in front of him... I just thought that was nice :)

Then I went to walmart after midnight... bad call. But I did exercise my "city walk" that whole focused stare, big confident steps, not making eye contact. Then after I bought my water shoes and Nair(yep - totally didn't shave!! ^_^) I had the option between two lines... a few ghetto boys, or an older mother and daughter who seemed to be buying stuff for a baby shower... I chose the women, and I actually ended up talking to them which kind of eased my nerves when an army of ghetto boys got in line behind me...

WOW! My family might actually leave before 10! We're practically ready... all I have to do is put away my face wash and tooth brush.. and I'm ready for an almost week in OC, NJ!!! <3 We just need to finish packing food mainly.. and pack the car... well, I better go start!

I'm armed with a swimsuit, whole grain wheat thins, laughing cow cheese wedges, weight watchers cheddar cheese, Fiber One bars, grapes, and carrots... the goal - don't gain anything!

I hope you all have a great week! <3

TaTa for now! :)

Sat, 26 Jul 2008 18:09:18 GMT

So... I don't feel like shaving right now. The fact that tomorrow my legs will be entirely bare in my bathing suit does not phase me... the fact that my legs, especially my thighs could be confused with a gorilla's thigh doesn't bother me(well, a very light haired, fair skinned gorilla.. haha)... hopefully I feel like shaving them before 3, because I have to go to church at 4, then I have to work until midnight! Maybe I'll just buy some Nair at walmart and I'll nair my legs, and just shave the very top...

I trimmed my bangs last night.. they're a little shorter than they were when I first got my hair cut... but I love it, and they'll be long again in no time.

There's a 30% chance of storms tonight... hopefully that will scare people away from getting ice cream tonight.

Oh... I've totally started an epidemic of Phineas and Ferb in my friends... my college and high school friends.. It's such a great cartoon... there are songs in all the episodes... like good songs... it's whitty and cute... and there's a platypus that doubles as a secret agent... you can't get any better than that! I totally suggest it to all of you. It's on every weekday at 10:30am on Disney Channel and most afternoons at either 2 or 3... or just look up the songs on Youtube... it's so cute! :)

Well... I have to go finish packing... and... shave. uhg.

Sat, 26 Jul 2008 01:39:54 GMT

EEEWWWWWWWWWWWW!
MTV Remaking The Rocky Horror Picture Show
http://www.comingsoon.net/news/movienews.php?id=47129
I think I want to curl in the corner and cry.

Okay, I had a weird interaction with a guy the other day... somebody please tell me how to feel about this.. because I can't stop thinking about it... I was in walmart intently focused on comparing different protein bars, and my mom called. I picked up my phone, I am clearly on the phone and intently comparing a product in each hand. Clearly occupied and busy. All of the sudden I feel something cold on the back of my shoulder. I turn around and it's some guy who just touched my shoulder with his soda can. I say "Hi, just a second", quickly finish the conversation with my mom - making it sound important and urgent(..she was telling me where the water shoes were.. haha)... and I hang up, and the guy is still looking at me.    Then he goes "I just wanted to say hi!" and I reply with an ever so cool "Hi.......?"   Then he asks, "You don't remember me do you" and I shook my head and apolagized... he then said that he went to school with me, said bye and walked away.
I feel horrible that I don't remember this kid... but then again, I was very involved in high school - I was in band, all 4 choruses, musical, fall play, and I did the talent show, performed at Bacceauloriet and Graduation... and my parents own a business right down the street from the school... so it makes total sense that he'd know who I am... and especially if he wasn't that involved in school (he didn't give off that school spirity vibe) and I didn't recognize him from any of my classes.... but what creeps me out a bit is the whole soda can on the shoulder bit.   I'd do that to my friend, to someone I see, or at least saw every day and had a relationship, even an acquaitance with... but not to someone that I just recognized from high school?... I don't know.   totally skeeved me out.

And now I have some creeper messaging me on myspace... I reported him, and I haven't responded.... I hate myspace, but some of my friends don't have facebooks, so it's easy to stay in touch with them with it.
I'm just sick of creepers in my life. Why can't I attract a normal man for once?

But SCORE! Someone gave me a coupon for my tampons at Target.. yay for saving a dollar! I also found the Target brand protein bars... a box is $4, so I bought a single one to see if I like them... 14 grams of protein.. seems like a good between class snack to me.

I'm about half way packed. I just want to be there right now.   I'm excited to cross the state line from PA to New Jersey and hear Bon Jovi's "Who Says You Can't Go Home" on the radio every 4 seconds... and stop at the same McDonalds and... well, this will be the first year in ever I don't order a happy meal :( Grilled chicken and a fruit and walnut salad for this girl! And then feed all of the leftovers to the seagulls... then start seeing the big ferris wheel in the skyline... yay! :) It makes me happy! Oh! And I want to buy a kite to fly on the beach in the evening :) I always think they look so pretty.. I want to help make some of the pretty

Sadfaces.

Fri, 25 Jul 2008 05:19:10 GMT

Quite sad. I didn't win the Jonas Brothers tickets. Not that I really believed I was going to... but there's always that little chance... my mom did get through one time.. she was caller 18, the winner was caller 25. This is becoming a Backstreet Boys level obsession quite quickly... and I love it! :)

I love going to the King of Prussia mall... it's always a good day there :) There was some talk of Sarah's wedding... I'm excited for it... I really do wish the best for her and her hubby... it's just so sudden. And it's weird.. her mom moved to Florida, she lives with her dad now - she doesn't live around the block any more! But after the wedding she's moving like 4 hours away... :( No more making movies, no more music videos, no more hanging out at the mall... it's sad. My sister, Sarah, Trish, and I are all going to see Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants in a few weeks, right before my sister leaves for school to start her senior year of college.

Holy time moving faster than the speed of light, Batman!

So it's 1am... I'm not tired, so maybe I'll finally finish cleaning my room. I have a pile of dirty laundry.. I can't very well do laundry now.. but I could put away the piles of clean clothing.. and start packing.. I think I have like 3 things in the suitcase right now! This is bad for me! I'm usually on this shit - but I'm not... this has just been an odd week. It feels like it's going slowly, but it passed so quickly! Nighty night!

Every story, new or ancient...

Wed, 23 Jul 2008 16:05:42 GMT

"...bagatelle or work of art
all are tails of human failing
all are tales of love at heart"
-Every Story Is A Love Story - Aida
I'm in such an Aida mood right now.... I love being in an Aida mood :)

So no luck on the Jonas Brothers tickets... yet.. but I think the FM97 busy signal is starting to sound angrier and angrier at me.

I was up until 4 last night because of a storm... but I like storms and it was our first substancial thunder storm this summer... but I was too afraid to actually go up to the widow and watch the lightning. I was too afraid Cruela DeVil would appear at my window asking to buy my 15 newborn, unspotted dalmatian puppies or something... which is completely crazy because I'm on the 2nd floor(Yes, that's the only unrealistic part of the Cruela DeVil theory x__X haha)

Oh yeah - 175 pounds for the second morning in a roooowwww!!! :D And I even gave in to every ice cream related craving last night. - one scoop of chocolate hard ice cream sprinkled with a spoonful of peanut butter cup pieces and butterfinger pieces and a dab of marshmallow... but it was small... but it was mighty! I know I can't eat that all the time... but it was the most amazing superdeduperest treat ever.

But it seems like I'm not going to be able to go on a walk today.. the high is only 81, which is perfect.. but it's rainy. I've walked in the rain before though... so we'll see. I hope they still have the school district carnival tonight... I was going to go play bingo! (Wow, I sound like an old lady.)

Wish me luck for the JB tickets! :) haha.

Mon, 21 Jul 2008 22:42:58 GMT

So today I tried to win Jonas Brothers tickets for this Friday from the radio station... yes, I really tried. Like, had my brother and sister helping me on my sister's cell phone and the home phone. Funniest thing ever. Didn't win... but there's one more chance tonight, and 5 more each on Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thursday. And now I have my mom helping me out :) And she's my lucky charm.

But good news: I hopped on the scale today: 175!!!!!!! SQUEE! That's 10 lb.!! Now it's not my official weigh in today... that's Saturday, but still... It's definitely motivational :) I'm going to King of Prussia on Thursday, and if I'm 175 for the next 3 mornings then I'm buying myself my 175 pound reward at Sephora :)

(Rant about guys... well.. one guy in particular... just a warning.)
In other news, boys are assholes. And I think I realized, I don't even miss him... it's the idea of him that I miss. The thought that he might miraculously get over her after 2 years and realize how beautiful I am, and realize that I'm the best thing that could have hapened to him.. but No! He's so selfish and petty... I don't know what his problem is anymore. I was going to ask him if he could have lunch with me at King of Prussia on Thursday because he lives pretty close and I haven't seen him in 2 months, but I don't know if I want to anymore... I mean.. we spent a lot of time together last semester, and I miss our inside jokes... but a lot of it was him complaining to me, using me as a therpist... I mean, he trusts me and confides in me.. and there's only so much of that I can take! I mean - I give and give and give in this "relationship"... is it too much for him to care about what's going on in my life or what I'm worried about or upset over? I know everything about his ex, his high school friends, his family, and so on and so on.... he doesn't know jackshit about my life and my drama. I could tell when something was bothering him... but I was just cute and happy girl who he could trust with anything, I was the perfect little target for all of his selfishness because I care so damn much about him that I just lap it up like water. Enough is enough. Things are going to be much different from now on. I'll let him call me or im me... I hereby cut off my right to initiate communication with that dog.

Now if I could only stick to this the next time I see him or talk to him instead of melting like butter and start choking on my words and get bashful and stupid and not be myself....

Well, I have to go to work... I need chocolate ice cream.

oh wow.

Mon, 21 Jul 2008 06:26:30 GMT

well, today wasn't a total binge day... it was more of an... eat a little more than usual, but not making the worst choices. And my ice cream melted because I was waiting on customers after I ate about 4 spoonfulls.... 4 amazing spoonfuls of hard chocolate ice cream with cashews and a little bit of marshmallow.... YUMMM! :) Crunchy, sweet, yummy.... not too good for me - but hey, fate stepped in and melted it after 4 spoonfuls! haha. I didn't have time to work out because I got up late and went to see The Dark Knight... but I did clean dining room tonight.. I had to sweep and mop under all the tables and mop the floor... so I worked up a little sweat.

Oh, and The Dark Knight. TOTALLYAWESOME! I don't usually reveal the 4 year old comic book geek that I was... even though I still have my cousin's set of original X-Men action figures in my room... anyway. It was amazing. There was not one part that I thought was boring or dragged out... a few quick things I didn't quite get but that can be solved by seeing it again :) And Heath Ledger... I still have the poster of him in A Knight's Tale hanging right over my bed .. he was amazing. I wish I had a fraction of his level of talent! Remarkable. And Gary Oldman... ILOVEHIMSOMUCH!... (MUCHMORETHANA19YEAROLDSHOULD! ) haha. He's one of my favorite actors. He's excellent.

Anyway.. just checked the weather forecast for vacation... Sunday, 85° high, Isolated storms, 30% chance, Monday 84 Sunny, Tuesday 85 Sunny. YAAAAAAYYYYYYYYY!!!! :)

I really need to start going to bed earlier. Goodnight 2am.

The beach bench.

Sat, 19 Jul 2008 16:52:56 GMT

I know I keep talking about it, but I am such a dork when it comes to vacation... I've always been. When I was little, I'd always write and illustrate a book for my little brother before we went to the beach. My Gramom would help me with what to write, I'd draw the pictures, she'd keep them in an envelope and then "publish it"... aka: staple it. haha :) Oh, I was an embarassingly creative child.

Anyway... the beach bench has started... right now it only has some beach towels, a portable radio, and a paper bag full of snacks... but soon it will include suit cases and a bucket or two, some magazines... This week just needs to fly by! I've been up for 4 hours, but it feels like it's been 8! I always get so excited that time practically stops!

I'm starting the Spark People Bootcamp thing. My problem is that I have no room to do any workouts in front of my computer, and I don't get wireless in many other parts of my house where I could work out... but I do have a workout DVD that's cut up into 10 minute segments, focusing on all different muscle groups... so it wouldn't be the exact same... and there are printable versions of the workouts.. and so far it looks like I can do all of them in the hotel room... i just need something to spice up my workout routine and something that makes me stick to it.

Maybe I'll go clean to make the time pass... or maybe I'll just end up reading Twilight :)

Random thoughts.

Fri, 18 Jul 2008 19:14:48 GMT

-I cannot wait to see Dave Matthews Band again in concert next summer! I've been listening to them non stop today, because I downloaded a few of their albums last night... love them.

-I'm pretty sure DMB's "Where Are You Going" is going to be a slow song at my wedding reception.

-I checked the weather channel website 10 day forecast, and the first day of my vacation is on there... and it supposed to be 86°F and Sunny in OC, NJ the 27th!! Huzzah! Perfect weather for spending hours in the ocean!! I know it's still 10 days away... but still :)

-The new seasons of Monk and Psych start tonight!! Probably a fruit smoothie worthy event :)

-Chinese food for dinner! And they have kids sized meals :)

-I'm starting to make my traditional Beach-music mix for my family's vacation... our van doesn't have a cd player, but we have a portable dvd player that we use to play music when we get close... the past few years it's tradition that I make a mix that we listen to for the last hour or so of our drive. If you have any good suggestions for summery songs, just post them :) Musical tastes in my family range from The Beatles,Chicago, U2, Backstreet Boys, Jonas Brothers :), Finger 11, just to name a few of the artists I've put on the cd so far... but I think I'm going to make 2 this year... I have a lot of songs I like this summer!

-In case you couldn't tell... I'm so excited for vacation!!! :D

-I have to go clean my room and do laundry before dinner... bye!

I'm such a dork.

Thu, 17 Jul 2008 19:36:21 GMT

I love the Jonas Brothers
They are The Backstreet Boys + Hanson... and that equals a whole lot of awesome! :)
I really hope I get to see them at the Allentown Fair!!

I was watching Phineas and Ferb while cleaning the computer room, and they have a little commercial break short series of "Behinds the Scenes" stuff with the Jonas Brothers on the Disney Chanel... and this was about staying healthy on the road... and it showed Joe lifting weights and working out... *TeEnIeBoPpEr SwOoN* :D

Today.. I had a fruit smoothie for breakfast, openfaced roasted chicken salad sandwich for lunch... then I had a yoohoo juice box thing and a 100 calore pack of Stella Doras.. aka: the root of my existence :) haha... no idea what's for dinner

And I literally just got a phone call asking me to work 6 - close tonight... which is alright because this was only going to be a 33 hour pay check before vacation, so now I get at least 38.. which is better of course... the only thing is I won't be able to take my walk tonight :( Oh well... maybe I'll just do some Yoga Booty Ballet now and have some grapes afterwards.. I'll just order a chicken salad at work... But that means the temptation of ice cream is all around me! Maybe I'll bring some skim milk and make a milkshake... hmmm

Goodnight yall.

Interesting.

Wed, 16 Jul 2008 21:25:32 GMT

I was flipping through the channels and I stopped on Oprah for a second and they were talking about vitamin D.. then my brother made me change the channel to nickelodeon, where Drake and Josh had just run over Oprah.. but that's not the intersting part... I looked up what she was saying, and I found this:
Most people meet their vitamin D needs through exposure to sunlight [6,27]. Ultraviolet (UV) B radiation with a wavelength of 290-315 nanometers penetrates uncovered skin and converts cutaneous 7-dehydrocholesterol to previtamin D3, which in turn becomes vitamin D3 [11,27-28]. Season, geographic latitude, time of day, cloud cover, smog, skin melanin content, and sunscreen are among the factors that affect UV radiation exposure and vitamin D synthesis [28]. The UV energy above 42 degrees north latitude (a line approximately between the northern border of California and Boston) is insufficient for cutaneous vitamin D synthesis from November through February [6]; in far northern latitudes, this reduced intensity lasts for up to 6 months. Latitudes below 34 degrees north (a line between Los Angeles and Columbia, South Carolina) allow for cutaneous production of vitamin D throughout the year [14]

I did Yoga Booty Ballet today... I sweat so much! It felt so good. It made me so excited for my ballet/modern class this semester! I might go on a walk later too... maybe around 6... I'm going to walmart around 8 to get lettuce, because I'm out already from Sunday night.... maybe I'll pick up some mangos as well... I'm back down to 176 this morning! Bloating.. hopefully over.

Maybe I'll clean my room now... I have to pack for vacation next week, and I hate packing in a messy room... and I hate coming home to a messy room. So I'll be killing two pet peeves with one stone. .. wow.. the more I reveal about myself the more I probably like I need a lot of medication.

I leave with a random question: Has anybody ever used that continuous spray sun tan lotion? How do you tell that all of your skin is covered? I have pale, very burn-prone skin... so I like glopping on the cream and knowing my skin is totally covered... but I'm curious about the continuous spray stuff.

Uhg.

Tue, 15 Jul 2008 20:49:24 GMT

I'm PMSing... bloating, cravings, moodyness.. and here's a new one: I feel like shit. I was fine all day, then like 20 minutes ago I started getting light headed and feel like I need to throw up or something... I feel so gross. I don't even feel like eating. My head feels like it's going to explode, my stomach feels like it's going to violently reject anything that dares to enter.... uhg.. and I don't want to go to work tonight.. and I was going to exercise at 5... that's not going to happen... I hope it's PMS and not something serious.. that would suck.

So with nothing much to be inspried by, I attatch this video to the entry

Psych, anyone?

Mon, 14 Jul 2008 22:21:12 GMT

So the picnic was okay... it was only my family, my uncle, his wife, and my grandparents.. I thought it was going to be my whole dad's side of the family... but it was a lot of fun.. we had hot dogs and hamburgers, swam, and had apple pie with butter brickle ice cream.. and I didn't eat too much.. but then I ate 5 damn brownie bites that we had to get a container of because my brother doesn't eat pie.

It is so easy to spend $70! I bought a rug for my dorm! At Target for $25.. it's dark blue with blue, green, and white squares on it. It's cute... our overall room-theme is darker colors, with splashes of lighter colors.. like I think we might be getting bright green curtains for the window. I also bought a pair of jean shorts(I realized yesterday I have 2 pairs of shorts, none of which are denim!), 2 tank tops, some waterproof brown mascara, and some purple mascara. And BOOM! money go byebye! But it was.. mostly.. stuff I needed.. except the purple mascara.. but I'll get good use out of it :)

I don't know if this is a good or bad thing - I'm not going to be in that wedding in December... my friend's fiance doesn't want anybody standing for him, so she's not going to have any bridesmaids.. I'm kind of sad because the 4 of us have always been a fiersome foursome.. and all the wedding stuff would kind of be like our last adventure.. but I guess we still have a bachelorette party.. maybe something like a nice dinner and a show in NYC... we'll see. But at least now I won't have to worry about fittings and dress sizes.. but I could reward myself with a dress if I'm down a size or two! :)

Well, I have to work at 7... I'm outie.

Another creepy man at work.

Sun, 13 Jul 2008 06:08:56 GMT

Tonight it was an Indian man.. accent and all.. told me I have the same name as his sister and that I have the same eyes as she does. He said he'd come get ice cream from me again.

I think it's my haircut. I think my bangs just yells "CREEPERS WANTED!"

oh.. and I'm not going to be in that wedding in December... she's not having any bridesmaids because the groom doesn't want anybody standing for him. I'm okay with it.. it just would have been so fun for the 4 of us to have that experience together.. I mean.. we'll still be helping with the shower.. and doing some sort of bachelorette party.. maybe a trip to NYC for a nice dinner.. maybe the Sex in the City tour or something. But we're not part of the wedding.. so it's just a bit of a let down... but now I don't have to worry about a dress fitting and making sure I still fit the dress... I can just buy myself a nice new outfit.. hopefully a size 12.. optimistically a size 10!

Goodnight.

Boo/Yay!

Sat, 12 Jul 2008 18:01:29 GMT

Boo: My roomie didn't come today because her family is giong through a little rough patch.

Yay: Instead of outlet shopping, I'm going to Salvation Army today (I'm a thrift store addict.. I'm even in a lj group for it!)

Boo: I forgot lettuce at the grocery store

Yay: I got blueberries, rasberries, strawberries, watermelon, and papaya.

Boo: My computer room and bedroom are a mess

Yay: Project Runway marathon!! And it's season 2 with Daniel Vosovic <3 Unfortunately he didn't win becasue of stupid Nina Garcia who nobody likes anyway... but I still loved his collection.

Boo: I don't have a tv in my room to watch Project Runway as I clean

Yay: I "officially" lost a pound at weigh in today! :) 176 baby!

Boo: I have to wash my hair today.. and I have a lot of dry hair that I only wash every 4 days.. so that means a long shower.. but I think I'm going to just let my hair air dry and ger curly.

Yay: I get to swim tomorrow! My uncle is having a random "It's 93 degrees and I have a pool" picnic tomorrow afternoon! :) Unfortunately that means there's lots of Italian food and 3x the desserts that we actually should eat... but it will be fun. Hopefully it's not awkward, because sometimes things can be awkward with my dad's side of the family.

Yay: I got paid yesterday! :) Wootwoot money!

Yay: My mom basically told me what she wants for her birthday... an overnight trip to NYC to see The Little Mermaid with my sister and I over winter break! :)

Yay: I go on vacation 2 weeks from tomorrow.. I can't wait!!!

Yay: The Yay's outweigh the Boo's! :)

craziness.

Sat, 12 Jul 2008 05:01:45 GMT

So I had a really weird dream last night. I was in an English class at my high school, and the teacher really liked us and kept us late. So he kept us until the end of the day, and then I had to go to swim practice with my friend Allie(she was on the swim team.. I never was..) So I swam with her.. THEN I went to auditions for my school show.. only it was a weird version of my college's theatre, and the lobby was a stage as well. Only I didn't know anything about the audition. It was just a random play.. but I was running around helter skelter in my wet bathing suit, then the woman who was the producer in my high school shows handed me a bag of clothing and explained where I need to go and stuff. Then the girl who was my "competition" in high school was "helping" me.. she was telling me how everyone was already in line, and I was next, and I didn't have much time, and that everybody else had the script memorized... I scrambled to find a script - and she kept saying how everyone had it memorized... I remember she said "You could memorize it in time" And I said "We'll see about that. I got a lot better at college"(which offended her, because she wanted to go where I go, but she didn't get accepted). Then I finally found a script and got in line - I had like 5 people in front of me and then my friend Jessie from college came up behind me and I asked her what was going on because I still had no clue and FINALLY she explained it all to me. Then I woke up.

It's kind of weird because the woman who produced the shows at my high school came into my work tonight.

In other news.. I should probably up my protein and fiber. I've been quite average on my intake lately. But I did have a cherry, blueberry, carrot, chicken salad for lunch. Quite yummy and filling.. and quite made up of whatever fresh produce that was left in the fridge. We go grocery shopping tomorrow... any suggestions for good foods to put in a chicken salad? I also need whole grain bread, romain lettuce, my Perdue instant microwavable chicken, and eggs for hard boilin'. :)

I'm also going to the outlets tomorrow because my roomie is visiting! :)

OH! And I downloaded a (FREE!) graphic making program today! It's called GIMP... it's a little confusing.. but I like it better than spending a fortune on a program to make livejournal icons. I've made 2 so far.. I'll post then when I make more.

Thu, 10 Jul 2008 18:40:38 GMT

I was bored.. so I decided to share my most recent purchases.. just for fun.. to help me keep track of what I'm spending my paychecks on. haha. There's also a picture of the earring holder I made because I have way too many earrings to keep them in my little plastic drawer now.

There's me modeling my new hair cut.. and that's Perry the Platypus. :) I love Perry the Platypus.. he's actually a secret agent called Agent P disguised as a domestic pet who doesn't do anything... and it's actually a boys shirt from the Disney Store.. and it was only $2.99!

17 pairs of earrings for $24.. the multicolored ones are hearts.. the three gold studs are little roses, flowers with a little pearl bead in the center, and stars.

I bought the little picture frame at the beach last summer for a few dollars, and I just lightly hammered fabric pins in, and I'll put something on it so that I can hang it up in my dorm.

Keyboard tote bag!! I love it for a purse and I can use it for books at school. AND it was only $6.50.. it was $16.50, but at Delias you get a $10 gift card just for trying on a pair of jeans.

Sunglasses, both from New York & Company, both $2.99

I get a little too excited about shopping :)

Lunch today was awesome.. I didn't have any chicken for a salad, so I had a small baked potato with cheese and a little bacon.. I made a little side salad with a nectarine and blueberries.. yummie!!

Well, I'm on call, so I have to call soon to see if I work tonight.. so, peace out.

Creepy Old Men and a stomach ache.

Sun, 06 Jul 2008 06:21:00 GMT

Today at work, I made a sundae for an older man.. in his 60's probably.. and when I put the sundae on the counter he goes, "aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhh That's orgasmic."
AAHH!! HOW do I respond to that!?! And to make matters worse his wife who was next to him says to me, "Oh, he must really like you!"
Luckily he didn't tip me. If he would have, I would have felt really dirty.... why is my life full of awkward moments like this?

Small.. kind of strange NSV for the 4th of July.
I ate a fair amount... Like, the amount I've eaten before at picnics.. and even though my plate was half fruit, the 2 perogies, hot dog, cheese burger, and big brownie made me so sick. Like running to the bathroom sick. Which is bad of course, but considering when I was at a picnic the last week of school I had 2 cheesebuergers, 2 hot dogs, and several cookies and wasn't sick, it's my body telling me that it doesn't want all this junk any more! My body is used to the healthier foods I've been eating the past few weeks.... it may seem silly, but it's progress to me :)

No change in heart, a change in me.

Fri, 27 Jun 2008 07:46:08 GMT

Well, the song just came on my playlist.. and I love it <3 Yay Beauty and the Beast!

A) Everything worked out with this scholarship. Life is back at balance. I feel like I can breath again. I feel like I have control over my life again. Which is nice because I started freaking out especially this past week, and I couldn't bring myself to exercise, eat healthy... heck, I couldn't even bring myself to read or watch a movie I was so stressed out! But it turns out I have too much academic scholarships to qualify for the talent scholarship.. and besides that I'm getting enough that I can afford my education quit comfortably without it, at least this year.

B) I went wedding dress shopping with my friend Sarah yesterday.. Trish, my sister, and I went along. And we are her unofficial bride's maids. It is a very small wedding, so she's not sure if she's having bride's maids or not yet, but if we are - we are either wearing Apple - a beautiful red or Holly - a beautiful dark green. The wedding is December 27th! Oh, and bonus! The dress shop is about 20 minutes away from my college, so if I continue to lose weight I can get the latest possible fitting that they allow! Everyone else... even the bride! is at least an hour away.

C) Now I'm thinking about my wedding. I've decided my color theme depends on the time of the year. Red/black/white for winter, blues and white for spring, greens or purples for summer or fall. And I am dancing to Peter Gabriel's "Your Eyes" sometime at my wedding.. it doesn't have to be the first dance.. just a dance. And "Kiss the Girl" fromTheLittle Mermaid will be played sometime at my wedding :)

D) I am going to see the DAVE MATTHEWS BAND CONCERT tonight in Hershey!!!!!! I am so excited! :)

Random thoughts

Thu, 19 Jun 2008 03:55:10 GMT

Weight Lo-I was helping my friend who just graduated and is coming to my college - he needed help scheduling, and I started looking at my schedule and I am so freaking excited for next semester! We're living in the dorm right next to the theater - rooming with Jenna, suitemates with two of my best friends, Ballet/Modern class!, Irish Cultures class!! :) And as far as I know my scholarship is still approved, and I'm making an audition tape next week for my other scholarship... so cross your fingers for me! :)

-Area rugs are EXPENSIVE! Especially cute ones!

-I love Jon Stewart <3 The Daily Show is amazing.

-By tracking on spark people I've noticed 3 things:
1. I'm not getting enough protein
2. I'm not eating enough veggies
3. I'm WAY too obsessed with Grey's Anatomy. Every time I see the term SparkPage, my mind automatically substitutes Sparkle Pager! haha. I miss watching it! I'm excited for the fall for that, too. Grey's parties with Kristen, Anthony, and Ang!

-I found these blue flats that I really liked tonight... and of all plaecs, at Walmart!  They're very cute and nautical,which I love.  I like them in red too, but I already have my eyes on red Converses from Target... I also want to get black jeans that Target has. But I'm going to wait until August to buy the

- I'm a dork. I want to get the Disney DDR! I've been doing DDR non stop lately... 45 minutes on workout mode today. It's intense! Then for my strength training, I try a variation on the "Baker's Dozen"(13 push ups, 13 sit ups, 12 push ups, 12 sit ups, 11 push ups, etc..) I started at 5, but now I'm at 6 - I do 6 push ups, then 60 of some kind of crunch, then 5, then 50. So far so good, I'm really feeling it.

-There was a really serious episode of That's So Raven on the other day... Raven's favorite clothing store wouldn't hire her because she was black! I was shocked, it was such a heavy episode - I mean, it handeled the topic very gracefully, but I was so surprised to see it on the Disney Channel!

-There is going to be a Smurf movie!!!

Well, I have a lot of phone calls to make in the morning... so I should probably get to bed so I'm not calling during lunch.
Or maybe I'll spend another hour on the Target website looking at things I could get for my dorm! :)